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Bitter:Sweet

—Dirty Laundry

Bitter:Sweet - Dirty Laundry

I’ve got a bad boy and that’s alright with me
His dirty laundry is nothing that I can’t keep clean

(via zzzambrano)

19th Apr 2012

‘I haven’t had a friend in years… I only have sex with myself’

….the future? aha

the leftover song of a magic night :)

(Source: youtube.com)

29th Mar 2012

‘Organization always merges back if you don’t pay attention.’
‘Death to organization!’

‘Randomness is very difficult to achieve.’

‘Tonight, I’ll show you how dreams are prepared. People think it’s a very simple and easy process but it’s a bit more complicated than that. As you can see, a very delicate combination of complex ingredients is the key. First, we put in some random thoughts. And then, we add a little bit of reminiscences of the day… mixed with some memories from the past. *adds pasta.
That’s for two people. Love, friendships, relationships… and all those “ships”, together with songs you heard during the day, things you saw’

‘In dreams, emotions are overwhelming.’

‘Will you marry me when you are seventy? You’d have nothing to lose.’

‘What’s this for?’ ‘For the occasion of… you’re pretty’

‘I like your boobs. They’re very friendly and unpretentious.’

Falling asleep on the floor to an old favouritenext to the heater.

au revoir tumblr unfortunately I have found a new love to occupy my time x

29th Mar 2012

Train ride. tattered pages. side ways glance. smile. find keys. god wear is my swipe? got it. Dark side street. Quite home of my own.

I still wake at 3am because that’s what time you got home most mornings. drunk. high. nothing out of the usual. light sleep waiting for the slam and crash of walls. The walls are silent now the word ‘whore’ has faded along with the smell of your cigarette stained clothes.

‘Not tonight jessie I dont have the time’
You never understood that time was all you had.

This house reminds me of the absolute frustration I felt at a point
the horrible dividing of things.
in the end your kindness surprised me
taking me to the dr when I was sick, cooking me dinner when I found out my friend died.
I dont know if its because you felt bad about the way things played out
but I appreciate it all
and am so grateful to be on such good terms with you now.

I know Im the best practice better for the next kind of girl
I’ll be the first to admit love confuses me very much
and that marriage is not a high priority on the list of things to do in my life.
Im not bitter or cynical
hopeless romantics can never be this…
but my heart does not come as freely as it used to

Sometimes I miss the presence of someone
after a long shift
19 yr old with a brain tumor
diagnosed with cancer 2 days after his wedding
life I have found out can sometimes be shit
That’s just how the story is written not every one can have a fairytale end
I was told
‘neuro will harden you the fuck up girl’
still hasn’t
but I know it will.

I look back on the past 5 years
and I can see how much I have grown
the places I’ve seen
the things I’ve managed to accomplish
although being a perfectionist I’m waaayy behind
in my own mind anyway
the pressure of the looming 25 calls for another list

Even though it may not have been easy
and if I could go back and change some things I would (the wonderful power of hindsight)
I may not have said/done that, I may have left that relationship earlier, I would have found a way to keep you here…
I dont regret a thing except one.
After fending for myself in the real world I have such a deep understanding
of all that my parents actually did for me, the sacrifices, the hard work, the fact
they both supported me in everything I did (except the nude modelling dad)
and I regret that I never expressed all these things to my mum..because back then I just didn’t know.
I was so caught up in my own life I just didn’t see things the way I do now.

I appreciate the select special few people who have always been fighting on my side
the ones who never leave
that I am proud to call my friends
and I love them more than I could ever show.
The beautiful people I have met in chance encounters
the patients who remind me every day how lucky I am
and how amazing the smallest things in life can be.
I appreciate still those I no longer have in my life for particular reasons
who helped make me who I am today.
When I graduated I thought of him and how without realizing it he made me into a better person
how much I love him and always will for the things he taught me that I never knew I needed to learn
how much I wish for great things for him
how all I had longed to hear from him were the words ‘I’m so proud of you’
and although I never heard them
time passed and I could say them to myself
because I have done things I once believed I never could.